My Time

"Make time for yourself."
Sounds like something you'd hear on an Oprah episode or read in a woman's magazine. Our culture teaches us to look out for #1, to nurture our inner child, to love ourselves.

And while I don't buy into any of that, I confess that my right to spend my time as I wish is something that I grip with both hands. If I think that someone is taking too much of my time, I can get quite testy. I hate it when people are late, I get upset when my baby wakes too early from a nap, and getting cornered by a chatty neighbor is enough to make me come unglued.

The Lord has been talking to me about this a lot lately and repeats the same word to me over and over....SURRENDER. A surrendered life is a free life. Give it up.
There is no time that is my own. My every breath is a gift from Him. Do I live for myself, or live for God? I need much help and many reminders in this area.

I want to live for Him. I want to be completely and wholly devoted to my Lord. I can not do that when I am trying to fit Him into my own schedule. And so I thank Him for helping me see it His way and I pray...

"Teach me Your way, O Lord, and I will walk in Your truth; give me an undivided heart that I may fear Your name. I will praise You, O Lord my God, with all my heart. I will glorify Your name forever." Ps 86:11-12